Safe Space

Pursuant to our discussion about her hair, Flora also talked about some difficulties some of her friends are having. She says three of her friends have come out to her – and they have also come out to their families, with very discouraging results.

According to Flora, one of her friends came out as bisexual. Her parents have forbidden her to even speak about it at home, and her older sister calls her a schizophrenic. When Flora told me this, I felt like my head was going to catch on fire.

“You tell your friend,” I said, emphatically stabbing the table with my index finger, “that she can come over ANY TIME. Our house is a safe space for her.”

“Yeah, Mom, I already told her,” Flora responded.

Okay then.

I do not understand how a parent can reject a child. Especially on the basis of sexuality or gender identity — not just at this age, but at any age. Don’t they remember how scary this time was in their own lives? Trying to figure out who they were and who they wanted to be? The constant fear of not fitting in, of being rejected, of being alone?

In these years between puberty and adulthood, our children have more questions and insecurities, and do more exploration than they did since they were toddlers. (Apparently, a child learns more between birth and age 3 than for the rest of his/her/their life.) Tweens and teens are seeking their identities, independence, and acceptance. And even though they are pulling away from us parents, they still need us!

  • LGBTQ youth are at increased risk for dating violence and rape
  • LGBTQ youth are at increased risk for suicidal thoughts, behavior, attempts, and suicide
  • LGBTQ youth report higher rates of bullying and substance abuse
  • LGBTQ youth are at greater risk for homelessness
  • (Source)

If a child at this stage feels unloved, unsupported, and unheard, how much do you bet these risks and behaviors increase?

It will not stand, people. Not as long as I have a roof over my head.

I’m going to need a bigger house.

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Lack of Imagination

Aside from the constant reflexive lying, the thing that bothers me most about T*ump is that he is completely and utterly UNCURIOUS. This bothers me so much.

T*ump cares nothing about anything that doesn’t have to do with him. He is on an international trip, and he’ll be served steak with ketchup at formal dinners, which is its own travesty. People have been advised to keep comments down to two to four minutes and use visual presentations because of his attention span. People in charge of briefing the President at the White House put his name in documents SO HE’LL KEEP READING THEM.

This is a 70-year-old man we’re talking about. Not a high-school student riddled with ADHD.

He has no sense of American or world history, and I get the sense he has no intention of learning. Any news stories he doesn’t like are labeled ‘fake news’. He’s in Israel today, and he seems to have this amazing idea that HE is going to be the one to solve the problem of violence in the Middle East. “People are sick of it,” he informed the Israeli president. So you should just stop that, seems to be the implication.

And no, I won’t call our President a child. My children are bright, and curious, and the are capable of learning things — heck, they are EAGER to learn things. They are involved in the world, like being around people different than they are, and while they have strong opinions, they still are interested in other points of view.

Our President isn’t a child or toddler. He’s a grown-ass adult who cares nothing, not one whit, about anything that has nothing to do with him, nothing that doesn’t profit him.

If you read this blog (still), you probably are not a T*ump voter. If you are a T*ump voter, I wonder if you care about the man’s utter lack of interest in the world around him. I have additional news: He’s not interested in YOU either, not what will benefit you.

What bothers you the most about T*ump?

If the World Is Ending, I Don’t Feel Fine

Look, if the world ends in a nuclear armageddon because T*ump is — the list of adjectives here is too long, I’ll leave it at “thin-skinned narcissist bully utterly unfit for office of President of the United States” — if T*ump blows up the world, I’ll be seriously upset.

I mean, on one hand, I believe in an afterlife. If — God forbid, get it? — the Orange One does end the world, I have faith Heaven is waiting for me. I will be rejoined to God and resurrected in the life. My faith teaches me that, and, it’s true, I am willing to believe it. Your mileage may vary.

However, here’s a short list of reasons that I seriously do not want the world to end in fire (or otherwise). And why, when people ask or comment, I won’t “give him a chance” or stop resisting and writing and calling.

1. My children. Look, I had children rather selfishly, and I selfishly want to see them grow up and become the amazing, fully-realized people I think they are becoming. If the world spins on into their adulthood, I expect that they will do great things. And I don’t mean they will do great things like cure cancer or HIV — although maybe they will. I mean they will do great things by realizing their potential, not letting fear hold them back, and treating everyone they encounter with respect and kindness.

I’d like to see that.

2. I’d like to publish a book before I die. Again: selfish. All about me! But hey, I finally finished a manuscript, and learned how this publishing gig works! I would appreciate having the opportunity to show people a book with my name on the cover. (Er, or my pen name. Whichever I decide.)

3. I’d like to grow old with Dan. Sixteen years of marriage, seventeen years of being together, is not enough for me.

4. I would like the world to go on long enough to see three things happen in Washington DC:

    a. Big Democrat wins in the 2018 election.
    b. The impeachment of T*ump
    c. The true development of a progressive party (and not the Bernie Sanders progressive party). Seriously, if the Democrats response to T*ump is “re-engage with white male voters” count me OUT.

Again, if you’d like to read more about where I’m coming from, please go see (and support) She is getting this stuff Spot. On.

Not Normal: The Cuck and Globalist Edition

Reports surfaced today of infighting in the White House. Steve Bannon, the white nationalist who use to run Breitbart and who is now Chief Strategist at the White House, called Jared Kushner, who is… an adviser to the President? Shadows the Secretary of State — I honestly do not know if he has a title, but I do know: he is the President’s son-in-law. No, not President Bannon’s son-in-law; T*ump’s son-in-law.

I digress.

Bannon seems to be having a persecution complex, and has been complaining that Kushner is trying to push him out of the White House. His insults include “cuck” and “globalist.”

First thought: Steve Bannon thinks cuck and globalist are EQUIVALENT INSULTS.

Second thought: Do you know what “cuck” is?

Third thought: Steve Bannon is insulting Jared Kushner — T*ump’s son-in-law — by impugning his marriage to T*ump’s daughter. In that, Bannon is saying that Kushner wants his wife, Ivanka T*ump, first… daughter, I guess, to go sleep with black men.

Yes, that’s what a cuck is. That term takes the idea of being a cuckold, and gives it a nice white supremacist twist. (A cuckold is not just a man who has been cheated on. A cuckold is someone who wants his wife to cheat on him. It is what he finds sexually exciting.)

Make no mistake, I have no love for Jared Kushner or Ivanka T*ump. I think this is the worst first family to ever occupy the White House and they can all fall into a pit as far as I’m concerned.

But Steve Bannon is putting on a display of racism and misogyny that is… shocking doesn’t seem to quite cover it. Despicable. Stunningly gross.

THIS IS NOT NORMAL. This is not how normal adult people talk to or about each other. This is how internet trolls talk. AND THESE ARE ADULTS IN THE WHITE HOUSE?

The media are laughing about this. It’s funny to them, all the drama (at least the media reports I have seen thus far).

This isn’t funny. These frat boys are running the fucking country, not sparring in an internet chat room. This isn’t something you joke about, this is a situation where you look around for the grownups.

Where are the grown ups? They aren’t in the GOP Congress, that’s for damn sure. McConnell had a tantrum, and ended the filibuster. The President is probably watching cable news and tweeting about it. The Speaker of the House is… I have no fucking clue what he’s doing. Trying to appease the terrible people who want the ACHA to succeed. My own Republican Senator is a coward who refuses to listen to his constituents. He’s in lock step with his party.

Jesus, take the wheel.

Letters to Congress: List of Demands

To the Republicans:

1. Appoint an independent counsel to investigate the T*ump administration’s ties to Russia.

2. DON’T repeal the Affordable Care Act/Obamacare. Sit down with the Democrats and figure out how to make it better. You have three members who aren’t going to vote for anything less than full repeal – you don’t need them. The majority of your constituents don’t want the ACA to go away.

3. DON’T defund Planned Parenthood. Again, play the numbers. The majority of Americans want to have access to affordable reproductive health care, and the majority of Americans are in favor of a woman’s access to abortion.

4. Stop taking away rights granted under the last administration. Don’t pass laws about trans people in bathrooms; enforce current rape laws. Don’t roll back marriage equality; as a matter of fact, expand protections for LGTBQ people in their places of work.

5. Have live town halls with your constituents, you cowards. We pay your salary. You are our representatives! That means that you represent us in Washington, D.C. We don’t pay lobbyists to tell you what WE want the law to look like.

To the Democrats:

Look, we are glad that you are there, that you are standing up for us, that you appear to be listening. Just a few things.

1. Do Something: Write laws and submit them. Speak out against the egregious misdeeds of the T*ump administration. Hammer Republicans on healthcare, family leave, employee protections, and minority rights. Put some heart and fire into your messaging. And continue the relentless calls for an independent investigation into the T*ump administration’s ties to Russia.

2. Do Better: Hire and promote more women and minorities in your offices, both in DC and stateside. Find the women and minorities in your districts and mentor them. Hire and mentor them alongside white men, it’s fine! But you are going to have to acknowledge the blinders of your own involvement in systemic racism and sexism and BE BETTER than that.

Also, you’re going to have to walk to walk on corporate money. And transparency.

3. Do More: You are going to have to fight like hell for every vote, every seat, every state and county. Talk to everyone. Make your plans to benefit everyone clear. Tell butthurt people who don’t want everyone to benefit from living in America that it’s too bad their feelings are hurt. Equal rights and protections aren’t just for whites or religious people, or men. Be honest, but fair.

What would you add?

Letters to Congress: Save PP

One of the GOP platform action items is to defund Planned Parenthood and other family planning services. So I emailed my congressman to register my opposition to such action. I believe, as I stated in this blog post, that access to reproductive health care is vital for the economic health of families and women.

This is the letter I got in response:

Thank you for contacting me with your support of Planned Parenthood, Title X, and family planning funding. I appreciate the range of beliefs that have been shared with me on this topic and I thank you for contacting me with your own unique perspective. An overwhelming majority of my constituents object to the government directing their taxpayer dollars to fund abortion services, or to fund organizations that perform abortions. Towards that end, I have not supported continued federal funding for Planned Parenthood or any other organization that provides services to terminate pregnancies.

Thank you again for contacting me to share your thoughts on this issue. Please do not hesitate to contact me with further questions or concerns. If you are interested in receiving my email newsletter describing important votes and key committee activity, I invite you to visit my website at and sign up.


Oh, ho ho, sir. I don’t think so.

1. Tax dollars don’t fund abortions, and you should be sure to let your constituents know that. Ask them to look up the Hyde Amendment.

2. I don’t want my tax dollars to go to building a wall on the Mexican border. I don’t want my tax dollars to go to immigration bans, or drone warfare, or housing the First Lady in her New York penthouse to the tune of millions of dollars a year. Where’s my opt out?

Here’s a short list of where my friends and I would like our tax dollars to go, since we get to pick now: local infrastructure improvements; education; science initiatives; women’s shelters and food banks; EPA enforcement and national parks. (h/t to @AngrierFish, @MissSinBin, and @omgitsjen)

3. It is not up to you and your constituents to decide what other people – some your constituents, many more of whom are not – choose to do regarding family planning and reproductive health services.

My perspective is not “unique.” The majority of Americans, sir, believe in a woman’s right to choose; believe in the services that family planning centers provide – the majority of which are health screenings and birth control – and want families to be able to access care that benefits them… so that abortion becomes less necessary.

I have a feeling you may be hearing from an overwhelming number of constituents regarding this matter soon, and also from many people who support the ACA. Good luck with that “overwhelming majority” argument.

A Constituent

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Close to Home

Some days, I really don’t know where to start.

Should I respond to the incredibly condescending letter from my representative in Congress who apparently thinks that I’ll buy Republican spin about the ACA being a failed law, and be satisfied with the list of GOP “reforms” that are going to fix the problem? Because I don’t, and I won’t, and those “reforms” aren’t going to protect people’s healthcare or lower-slash-control costs.

I suppose since a number of GOP supporters were confused that the ACA and Obamacare were the same thing, maybe Representative Murphy thinks he can get away with his spin.

And then there’s Murphy’s support for disability advocates to protect constitutional and civil rights — as long as those constitutional and civil rights have to do with gun ownership, amirite? When comes to access to affordable health care, reproductive services, and marriage equality, I’m sure Murphy has no intention of protecting the rights of citizens. The hypocrisy is rather breathtaking, but maybe he’s hoping no one will notice.

I noticed.

Don’t even get me started on the whole Russian thing. I am honestly flummoxed that Congress doesn’t see the need for investigations (or, I don’t know, IMPEACHMENT) — but then I remember they are controlled by GOP long-timers who have an agenda they’d like to see signed into law, and quickly. They don’t have time for stinking investigations! Even though they had *several* hearings on Benghazi.


But I also have some problems closer to home, governmentally speaking. There’s the terrible SB3, which restricts abortion access after 20 weeks. It’s more restrictive than Casey v. Planned Parenthood, which is itself more restrictive than Roe V. Wade. Many people think Roe v. Wade is still the law of the land, but it’s really Casey v. Planned Parenthood, which caps abortion access at 24 weeks (with, I think but I am not sure, exceptions for the mother’s health).

Look, the abortion rate is the lowest it’s been in more than forty years. And, since the birth rate hasn’t gone up, it’s not because abortion laws have grown steadily more restrictive. It’s because women and men have access to reproductive health services, comprehensive sex education, and birth control.

Plus, do you know what happens at the 20-week mark of pregnancy? It’s something called the anatomy scan. This is an ultrasound that measures the baby’s growth and looks at all of his/her parts to make sure development is going along well. This is the point where most often problems are found — the baby is not growing well, or an organ is not developing normally. This is where parents learn if their child can live outside of the womb, and sometimes the answer is that the baby can’t. He or she has something devastatingly wrong with it.

(For reference, Dan and I had learned something pretty scary at Kate’s 20-week scan. Fortunately for us, it was a problem that required constant monitoring and no life-changing decisions.)

So, restricting abortion access at 20 weeks 1. Is unlikely to lower the abortion rate in Pennsylvania any further and 2. Is going to take a decision out of the hands of people most qualified to make it (parents and their doctors).

So, excuse me while I take care of business a little closer to home. I think I’ll write letters, because it’s hard to sum all this up in a phone call. Except to say to my representative in the Pa Legislature: don’t override the governor’s likely veto of SB3.

I took a pretty substantial social media break last weekend, because it really is TOO EFFING MUCH to take in on a daily basis. But I continue to call and write. If my Senators ever have a town hall meeting, you bet your butt I will be there!

What are you doing to resist this week? What are you doing for self-care?

sad woman, grey room


I don’t know what to write anymore (right now).

Commenting on the shitshow that is the incoming administration seems futile. Every day is a new low. It’s like watching a tragedy unfold, and the people you expect to stop it from happening, to step in and say, “No, no. This is wrong, and this is illegal, and you can’t do that” are sitting on their hands.

I guess they have been silenced too. Or have chosen silence.

Where is the Democratic leadership who is going to stand up to this administration? Where is the independent press that’s going to hold the Liar-in-Chief’s feet to the fire?

I feel like it is up to “We, the People”, but, you know, we’re trying to live our lives and pay our bills. I know that my friends need my voice. I am overwhelmed with where to start and what to say — and how to say it to more people.

So, anyway: I am reading “The Warmth of Other Suns.” That’s where I am starting. I am joining my friend and fellow LTYM mom Danielle to listen to others, to figure out how we make our voices count. I am researching the Safety Pin Box, and thinking it would be another good starting point.

This is not the time to “wait and see”, to “come together”, to give anyone in the upcoming administration a fair shake. They are Russian allies and white supremacists; they are Wall Street cronies and billionaires. They do not care about you or about me.

So you can be quiet if you like. But I’m going to find a way to speak up.


I emailed the electoral college Monday. This is what I wrote.

Dear Elector,

My name is [Red Pen Mama] from Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. I am writing on behalf of myself and my husband.

We are concerned about many issues that the country will face with a Trump/Pence administration. The GOP candidates ran on an incredibly divisive platform, and their campaign was marred by violence, racist and misogynist language, and promises that the administration cannot possibly hope to keep because they are unconstitutional. In the days since the election, more than 400 acts of racist violence have taken place, and the administration has only addressed them once. Donald Trump has appointed white nationalists to his cabinet, and seeks to install more in some of the highest positions in the land (for example, Jeff Sessions to Attorney General). The alt-right and other neo-Nazi organizations are reveling in the election of Trump and in his unconstitutional policies.

I hope when it comes time, you will find the will and the support to vote for the person who also received the most popular votes in the 2016 election. A Clinton administration would give us the checks we need in Washington to stop a dangerous demagogue and those who support him. We do not need to give these people unlimited access and power. It would be a grave danger to the American democracy.

Thank you for your time and consideration, I appreciate and respect the role you serve in our electoral process.



I got a bunch of automated replies. The EC is being inundated with emails like my own — and for good reason. Some of the emails were rather snippy, especially the one from Texas. Clearly, the electors are not non-partisan. Oh, and I was reminded we live in a republic, not a democracy.

But this is what I am doing now. Signing and promoting online petitions (see Audit the Vote), having conversations about what more I can do, deciding where to donate money. Checking in daily with my children to make sure everything is okay at school, that their friends aren’t getting picked on.

Do I expect the electoral college to NOT install the T*ump/Pence administration? No, no I do not. However, this whole election season has been one unprecedented act after another. Hillary Clinton got nearly 1.7 million more votes than The Great Orange One. And since the election, his actions have been the least presidential ever. I don’t need to run them down for you, but if you don’t know what I’m talking about, wake up.

Oh, and there’s this:


If you are okay with that kind of language, or with a major news networking asking, “Are Jews people?” then I don’t know what to say to you. The guy’s not even officially in office yet. This is not my America, and I will not let it be my America.

And no one is doing anything. One of my senators did release a statement condemning the appointment of Bannon, but in general, the Democrats have been awfully quiet. Major media outlets can’t find it in themselves to challenge the administration.

It’s not time for silence. Nothing about the in-coming administration is business as usual. It’s time to find your voice, and to speak up.

Find a group to join, whether virtually or IRL. I know that as a white woman, I will be doing more listening than talking. I will be doing more learning than teaching. I know that I will be doing something.

Not Going Back

Don’t come at me with your calls for unity. Don’t ask me to give him a chance.

I won’t do it. I’m not sure I’m capable of doing it.

He has no clue what he is doing. He gave the alt-right a voice in his cabinet. That is unconscionable. His vice president is a vile homophobe who seems to also have little respect for women.

I don’t want to go back to millions of uninsured people, exclusions for people with pre-existing conditions, and children getting kicked off their parents insurance before they are established in a career.
I don’t want to go back to 2008, when the economy went off a cliff.
I don’t want to go back to the 1970s, when women’s health care regarding reproduction was condoms and hoping he pulled out in time. (The pill was in its infancy.)
I don’t want gay, lesbian, trans and queer people to go back in the closet.
I don’t want to go back to the 1950s and segregation.
And I certainly don’t want to ban and deport different religion and cultures. Diversity makes America strong.

The GOP ran on a platform of taking things away from people. But they didn’t actually win a mandate to do that. (I’ll leave the Democratic Party to figuring out its own mistakes and missteps in the last election. Both parties have to get better, foster room for other parties and voices as well.)

I’ve seen reports of Obama “being willing” to stick around and help out.

Screw that noise. I think Obama should walk away and not look back. Why in heavens name should he help transition the next administration? They did nothing but demonize him.

Let the people who sowed this reap it. As for the rest of us, fight. Write, call, protest, give money, and VOTE in 2018 and 2020. Screw the next administration. Let ’em founder on the shoals of their ignorance.

It takes a long time to build. It takes very little time to destroy. This upcoming administration is built on hate and bent on destruction.

And before you tell me I’m overreacting or I have to let it go: A friend of mine received death threats today because of her faith. She writes for an online magazine. She’s a mom. She could pass for a white Christian woman if she had to.

She shouldn’t have to.

Here’s a resource I will be using:

Here is a speakers series that may be a good starting place (for people in Pittsburgh). It’s a conversation about Race and Parenting.

We have to be part of the solution. We have to fight to win the country back.

I’m ready.